Never Say Never (aurora)

[JESSE COLE PARKER]

Jesse hung up his phone staring at the screen for a few moments as it blinked 'Aurora...Disconnected'. That's when it home. Could she have really erased him from her life, after all they had been threw? Then he thought back to her song 'Here we go again'. She told him to listen to the entire album. Which was what he did but that one song stuck in his head knowing that it was completely about and completely true. It was always like him to think about himself and only himself. That's how he grew up. That's why he was never able to keep a sturdy relationship with anyone. His peakiness was also factor. Most people were picky about food or cars but Jesse was extremely picky about the girls he dated. Because of his self righteous personality he needed someone who could handle him. Someone who wasn't always so serious and understood the humorous personality that he had. A girl who was sweet and beautiful. Though he never realized that the girl who fit all those features had been right in front of him the whole time.

Time and time again Jesse had left Aurora hanging. It was a clear message in her song. Maybe it was because he was so use to picking the wrong girl that he was too blind to notice whom the right one was. For a moments time he looked for attention and having the girlfriend who was famous gave him just that. It wasn't just her either. His brother was famous, about to release a new album. Jesse was use to all the attention and soaked up every minute of it even if he wasn't the one in spot light. He had taken advantage of Aurora not thinking that their relationship was as serious as she thought it to be. It wasn't until after she had left, for good it seemed, did he realize how much he cared about her. He didn't have girlfriend, better yet, his best friend to call. She wasn't there for him when he needed her most anymore. It seemed cliche because she was always there but he wasn't. How extremely horrible he felt, knowing the truth. That was why he needed to see her, to talk to her, and to some how make up for lost time. To prove that things were different this time.

Jesse stuffed his phone in his pocket, finally coming out of thought. He pulled on his blade button-up shirt and grabbed his car keys off his dresser. He made no use to tell his brothers where he was going and left their place in a rush. He unlocked and pulled open the drivers side door to his car and slid onto the seat. He was in too much of a hurry to walk, even though it wasn't more than a few blocks away. It was close and convenient for the two of them. The faster the got to each other the longer he had to talk to her. Jesse didn't exactly prepare himself for what he was going to say but he hoped that she wouldn't leave him struck to where he had no words at all. She was pretty stubborn like he was and once she made up her mind she normally stuck to it but somehow he had to convince her otherwise. This was the first time Jesse had strong feelings for a girl. Feelings that he never knew he could have and he wasn't about to let her slip away. Not without a fight.

He pulled into the parking lot, the park in plain view now. Luckily it was late enough so there weren't very many people. That was good, just in case someone how they started a scene, which wasn't likely. They were both very vocal about their opinions and always bickered about things while they were together. Jesse hoped that it wasn't one of those days. Especially at a time like this he didn't need for them to fight. He just wanted her to understand and hopefully give him another chance though he knew it wasn't going to be that easy. Jesse stepped out of his car, not bothering to lock it and walked threw the entrance of the park. His hands slipped into his pockets as he looked around, not seeing her anywhere. Shocked that he was there before her. He sat down on the nearest bunch and placed his palms on both of his knees as looked down at the ground. He bounced his legs out of nervousness.

Tagged:: Aurora
Status:: Finished
Word Count:: 847
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[AURORA ILLINOIS KING]

aurora didn't want to go.

she knew that for a fact, but she had promised, and
aurora kept her promises. sometimes, she went to d
rastic measures to keep her promises. she hated wh
en people didn't keep their promises; and definitely
wasn't a hypocrite, because she went to great length
s to keep her's. she even broke into someone's hous
e once to keep one. -- to see someone, who happen
ed to be out that night. she'd gotten bail by her moth
er, and it was a long time ago, but it was quite the e
vent at the time. she sighed as she turned her phone
off and lingered for a moment, simply staring at jesse's
number on her caller id. she finally snapped out of it,
and shook her head, setting her phone down. she got
up and went to her bathroom, where she made sure t
hat she looked somewhat decent -- rora wasn't feeling
that well that day; her throat was sore, and she had to
sing the next night, so she didn't want to over-exert he
rself. she put some eyeliner on and purple eyeshadow,
then slipped her sunglass on over her eyes and ran her
fingers through her hair, stressed. ------------------------

was she really going to go?

she had to. she had promised.. and deep down inside,
aurora wanted to go see jesse. she knew that she did,
she just didn't want to admit it to anyone.. and, of cour
se, herself. she was supposed to hate jesse -- he'd us
ed her for fame; he'd even said it the night she finally s
aid goodbye. they'd had a huge fight that night, and w
hen he'd went out to the bar or whatever he did later t
hat night, she packed up her things and left. and made
a whole cd of songs about him, more or less. she felt g
ood after writing and venting onto her cd, though. she
felt like she'd proved a point; like she'd finally said what
she needed to and now she could die happy. well, hap
py and alone. if that was happy, she thought to herself
as she made her way to the park by foot. she couldn't
deny it any longer, especially with talking to him again..
she missed jesse. which she shouldn't have, but she d
id. in their former relationship, she'd given jesse every
thing that he'd wanted -- and he never gave in return.
he just took and took and took and took, until she'd h
ad enough. she couldn't live like that; with someone w
hom she had a world of chances for but always just bu
rned right through. yes, there was a song on her album
about that, too. ----------------------------------------------

but then why did she miss him?

aurora clearly wasn't in her right mind. he'd hurt her so
bad -- and she had to go crawling back to him. or, almo
st crawling back. more like walking back. in her mind, th
at's what this meeting was. because she knew that onc
e she saw him, she'd go right back to loving him, and, d
amn, she wouldn't give a fuck what he said. she'd take
his excuses and word vomit all over again, like she did a
million times before. no matter how hard she tried or ho
w much she did to stay away from him, she always went
right back into his not-so-loving arms. but she hoped tha
t jesse wasn't lying when he said that this time was diffe
rent. she hoped that he would treat her right this time. t
he way she needed and deserved to be treated. --------

possible situations ran through her mind.

he could.. well, apologize, like they'd both "planned". or
she could upright just say that she forgave him and jum
p him. but what if people were watching? she knew that
some fans knew that she was there, and would possibly
follow her on her way to the park.. which was a hassle.
alright. she wouldn't do that. she'd invite him back to the
hotel, that's what she'd do. and they'd make up properly.
she wondered, prayed and hoped that jesse would treat
her right this time around. rora didn't know if she could h
andle anymore heart-break than she already had from hi
m. if he simply kept lying about changing his ways, then s
he would have to say goodbye, no matter how much she
loved him. she had learned the hard way that loving some
one wasn't an excuse to continue to be with them. she lo
oked around for any sign of fans when she stepped out of
the hotel, then smiled when she saw none and started off
to the park, keeping her head low. she finally arrived there
and looked around for him, her dark eyes searching the pa
rk underneath her sunglasses. --------------------------------

[JESSE COLE PARKER]

As he waited, Jesse began to worry. He was afraid that after everything Aurora had finally had enough. Maybe that was part of her plan. To get his hopes up thinking that she would show and reconsider them as couple but then really she would leave him waiting like he had so many times. Time seemed to tick by so slow but no matter how many times he checked his phone only a minute or so would go by before he checked again. In a way he wouldn't be surprised if she did flake on him. It was the least she could do to make him understand how much he hurt her but Jesse was desperately hoping that today wouldn't be the day Aurora by passed her loyal ways. That was one of the things that had attracted him to her the most. She was always there no matter what and she always kept her word. Which made him feel ten times worse for his past actions. No matter how many times she warned him he never got the picture until she finally end their relationship.

That was something that hit home for Jesse. It didn't take him long to miss Aurora. To miss her late night phone calls after she had finished up a concert. Miss watching her on TV or backstage of her performances, thinking that she was his. It never occurred to him how much he was only paying attention to himself. That's how he always had been and thinking back he could understand why she wouldn't want to put up with him anymore. Jesse wouldn't want to put up with himself either. She deserved so much more than him. Most told him just to give up and let her be happy with someone who treated her right. They were probably right but Jesse was determined to change. He wanted to make everything up to her and to show her how much he loved her. To think of it he never actually used that words when talking to her but maybe they would be the key to prove to her he was different this time.

Jesse was stupid. He took all her past chances for granted. He wouldn't be surprised he she had ran out to give but he was hoping otherwise. He never realized how easily she gave into him all the other times. There was something between them that always kept each coming her. Aurora willing giving him chances he didn't deserve and him always crawling on his knees for her forgiveness. It had always worked in the past. The begging. The assurances that he wouldn't mess up again. The promises that he always broke. Some how he always convinced her otherwise. But this time Jesse could sense things would be different. He knew that it wouldn't be as easy to get her back but he was ready for the challenge. She was the only girl who he ever cared about so much that felt the same back. He wasn't about to give her up just yet.

Jesse looked down at his phone again. Five minutes past and no Aurora. Finally he stood and gazed around the parking, thinking maybe she couldn't find him. Knowing her, she was probably in some sort of disguise so her fans wouldn't run after her. Which would be nice because paparazzi at a time like this wasn't such a great idea. As much as he liked the spotlight he definitely didn't want to see the headlines about them two. Especially if things went sour. Finally Jesse spotted a girl in the distance walking alone. He peered threw his glasses making her out. He stuffed his hands back into his pockets and headed to wards her. A steady pace that got him to her quickly. Aurora.. He said once he was a few feet from her.

Tagged:: Aurora
Status:: Finished
Word Count:: 709
Comments:: I love how their pictures they both have cute sunglasses.

[AURORA ILLINOIS KING]

her mind screamed that this was just going to be another meeting where he told her his excuses for letting her go and begged for her back.

it told her to turn around and go back to the hotel, because this make-up wouldn't change his ways. he'd always said the same thing when he wanted her back. "i can change, this time it'll be better," he'd plead, looking up at her with eyes so sad it could make hitler's heart melt. he'd be on his knees --which was one nice thing, because she felt like she finally had some power in the relationship--, begging her to take him back. and she would. every single time, until that one night when it was simply too much and she had to get out. she had decided that she'd had enough, and that she had to let him go. in the back of her mind, aurora could remember that she'd always came to the horrible conclusion that she'd have to leave him, because she knew that he wouldn't change. not for her. it was inevitable, their seperation. she was just holding it off with the world of chances that she gave jesse, time and time again. he never gave a damn what was going on with her, whether it was recording stress for the upcoming album or friend problems. he just never fucking cared. the first few months, she'd try to vent to him. he'd simply nod and continue whatever he was doing, putting in "mhm," or "that's nice," occasionally. after a few months, rora just stopped trying. he was clearly in the relationship for himself, she realized after she'd finally left him and looked back on all their moments. it took being away from him the revelation that he never really cared about her. it was all her love thrown into the relationship, and him just taking it and taking it until there was no hope left.

he didn't love her.

jesse never, ever, not once, had said that he loved her. he'd said multiple times to "go back to her work," because he was busy doing something more important than talking to her, apparently. he'd let her down again and again, coming crawling back for the fame that she had. how come she'd never seen that? or maybe she had, rora thought to herself as she looked around the park for him. she had just tried to resist the feelings of hurt, and the feeling that he was just using her, because she loved him. she had honestly loved him with all of her heart. she was so infatuated with him that she didn't want to see all his flaws, no matter what he did to anger her or hurt her. she had thought that he was perfect -- possibly, that this on-again, off-again.. thing was what all couples did. but she was faced with the reality everyday, and everyday she was coming to the end, to her final breaking point. when she finally had, she'd just said fuck him and left. he wasn't worth her time anymore, he wasn't worth her love or attention or, even, fame. so there went jesse.

and now, almost four months after their break-up, he wanted her back.

again. she reminded herself when she saw him and he soon saw her. her heart started to thud rapidly in her chest, in excitement and.. well, that was possibly the only reason. her palms started to sweat, her stomach doing flip-flops with those goddamn bats in there. she turned her head away to conceal the blush that was rising on her face as he grew closer --very quickly--, and then turned back to him, jumping a little when he was a few feet away from her. "aurora.." he whispered, and she blinked slowly, her heart melting at his voice. "jesse." she adressed him formally, trying to keep her voice straight but it wavered, like usual. she was so weak when it came to him, and she didn't know if she loved it or hated it. maybe both of them. she bit her lip and looked around, before taking the few extra steps and wrapping her arms around him, nuzzling into his neck. "you better not be lying this time," she whispered, pulling back and pulling her sunglasses off briefly to tell him she was serious. then, with another glance around, she kissed him. tingles ran down her spine and electroquted her from every single nerve, but she loved it. she just hoped when she fell this time..

he was going to be there to catch her.

[JESSE COLE PARKER]

Jesse prayed that he wouldn't go back to his old ways. He really wanted to change this time whether she believed him or not. He was determined not to put himself first in their relationship. In fact he put himself in front a lot. Maybe it was because as a child he was always competitive with his brothers. Especially Justin, whom he was closest with. Once Justin carried on his singing career he became famous. Recently putting out a new album that would sky-rocket off the charts. Jesse was happy for his brother but deep down inside his competitive side was jealous. He was good at singing to but that wasn't his passion. It was easier at their age to sore high with singing but film making wasn't the same way. He needed to go to school first and produce smaller films before he made it to the big time. It would take him just a little bit longer to get up there where Justin and Aurora were, he some how he had to get use to that.

At first it was all about the fame, which should have never been in his mind in the first place. To use someone like Aurora was wrong and it took a break up to figure out that much. Jesse was smart but not bright. It took him awhile to catch on to things, which was why he was thankful that Aurora was so patient with him most of the time. Thankful that she had taken him back time and time again. Now he wasn't so sure if things would work out that way this time. To be honest if he were in her position Jesse wouldn't take himself back. No one in their right mind would but now he realized how much she actually cared and understood why she always have him another chance. Jesse couldn't help but wonder if those feelings were still there. Whether she had actually move on like she claimed she did online. Maybe she was just saying that so he would leave her alone but he wanted to try one last time. To see if they could rekindle what they had.

Once he spotted rora he could feel his heart start to race. The feelings he had for her were hitting him more at that moment then they ever had. As excited as he was to see her, guilt sank into Jesse's eyes as he recapped all the songs on her knew album. How all of them were about him and how much pain he had caused her. As they neared each other, Jesse could help but think about how beautiful she looked. She always looked like that but never took the time in the past to appreciate it. As his girlfriend she always tried to do her best, to get his attention. He was an idiot for not giving it to her the first time. Well past few times. He was almost shocked that they approached each other she didn't start yelling at him. He was even more surprised as she wrapped her arms around him. Jesse took in the moment though. Pulling away would be the worst possible with to, so he wrapped his arms around her shoulders, nuzzling his face into her hair. He took in a sigh of relief. She was being more kind to him then expected, which calmed his nerves a bit. He enjoyed the feeling of her back in his arms.

I promise. Something he did a lot but said seriously, knowing that he was going to really try and kept it this time. One more mistake she would be gone forever. That was the last thing he wanted. Jesse watched as she took a step back from him and pulled off her sunglasses, giving him a serious look. He stared at her for a moment. Unsure of what to say now that they were actually inches from each other. Wait...how come you aren't yelling at me? He asked curiously but took her in his arms again as she pressed her lips against his, even more shocked but happy at the same time. It was like magic, the spark lighting as they kissed. He caressed one of his hands against her cheek then pulled away slowly, a smile planted on his face now. Look, I know I say it every time but I'm sorry. I'm an idiot. I never realized how much you cared about me until after it was over. The same goes with my own feelings for you. He brushed some hair from her face as he stared her in the eyes.

Tagged:: Aurora
Status:: Finished
Word Count:: 845

[AURORA ILLINOIS KING]

she was still having a hard time thinking he was going to change.

but she would believe him for now, and wait for the final verdict to see if he actually meant it.

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